On Greeting a Stranger on the Street...

But when we rise it's like strawberry fields

Even if I have a really great night, I always end up feeling shitty at the end of it. Maybe i just can't handle coming down from a high or something, I don't know...

Last night was cool. I was bored as hell but I decided to show up at Lance's late anyway. I got there at 7 (party started at 6), and it was only Lance, Erin, and Jessica. As I walked in, they said "..we're the only ones here," and I just think to myself "oh FUCK...." because of the obvious. Well they were just about to leave and get food for Lance, so I assume that I would be sitting in Lance's room alone until they get back, but as they start going, Lance asked me if I was going with, and I said "I don't know, am I?" and Erin said "Yeah, come on." I was a bit bewildered... she even laughed at some of my jokes. Well she ended up being normal(ish) towards me, as did Jessica and Lance. Well when we got back, Collin was there. Then we just sat around. For 2 hours. Nobody showed up until about 10. Even then, it was only one person, and the others came about half an hour later.

The party didn't really get started till about 10:30 or so, when we all went up and danced. Ann, Quinn, Diana (i think), and I went to get glowsticks.. We went to Hy-vee (Ann had gone to walmart and drugtown before and they were both closed), and we desperately asked if they had glowsticks. The guy said no, but we went to look anyway. We wound up in the halloween section, and low and behold, they had glowsticks for some reason. Well.. they were exactly like glowsticks, except for the fact that they were only 4 inches long. And the same price as normal ones.

Well we went back and people danced and such.. fog machine, blacklight, strobelight, (shitty) techo and house/trance, glowsticks.. mini rave. Except in Lance's tiny room. A bunch of people showed up eventually and stuff was cool.. Noel is a lot cooler than people give her credit for.. anyway, it was good because it was more personal than most things that I do nowadays.. people actually talked to each other instead of to a group, which was cool.. Eventually everyone stopped dancing and we went downstairs. I got tired of Lance's psychic/astrology/lanceness bullshit so I went outside and found Diana and Quinn who were like a block away and talked with them for a bit.. Carrie showed up with the three of us eventually and we talked for a while.. that was cool, nice and personal like I like it.. Eventually around 5, I went home and was on the computer for a bit before I got bored as shit and went to bed..


here's a picture of a man juggling in a silly hat for you, so you don't get too bored with all the text

UPS man came at 9 and woke me up.. I was in a nice sleep and I wake up to my door being knocked on, I have to do the following: think, find something quick to wear, run to the door, all while still being asleep.. Well I somehow was awake enough to coherantly sign my name on the guy's pad and took the speakers inside. I got back in bed and slept till about 1.. when I woke up I had lost all recolection of where I had put the box (in the hallway).. well, I got my kickass speakers which are.. well.. kickass. And my old ones were just awful. Finally my mom can't use the excuse that I can't listen to my music loudly on "such horrible speakers." She'll find some other way to make me listen to my music really softly..

I went to Quinn's at about 1:30 and met up with Him, Gemma, Sara, Diana, and Astred.. we went to 2nd street and eventually to the square.. that was cool. Quinn was being his normal bitch-self, "why the fuck are we going to the coffee house?" "God this sucks" etc.. then on the square we found Davey and Talon who both added more and more of the Quinn-attitude, but not too much.. we went to Gemmas where Jenny joined us, and eventually went to the high school to get ready for the play.

Sam got all pissed off at me for not liking the play and tried to confront me on in saying "well what do you have to say for yourself?" and I had no idea what he was talking about, so I gave him a strange look, and he said "about you thinking the play sucks" and I said "...it does." and walked off. I rushed my lines and had terrible interpretation, but only messed up twice, and they were both really small and one time Sara covered for me well.. When I was trying to take my old-age makeup off afterwards, there was only one makeup wipe left and Evan Newman and I were both going for it, and he barely has any makeup, and my entire face is smothered in it, and I told him that I needed it because I had a ton of makeup and hes like "too bad" and took it. I just gave him a "wtf" look and got a box of tissues to scrub my face with.

Went to Tiffany's afterwards.. Mostly cool people there.. we fucked around and did stupid things (wrestling, some stupid game) which didn't leave me in that good of a mood because I acted like an idiot during, and I don't like that. That's one thing I hate about big groups.. how I act when I'm in them.. I don't think Jenny likes me too much, and I just think that it's because I only see her when Im in big groups, and I don't act like myself in big groups.. Gar....

I got home in an okay mood, mentally slapping myself because Jim was also giving Jenny a ride home and just feeling like an idiot towards her. I got in and there was a message on the machine for me and i checked it and it was my mom being all pissed off that i "hadn't called" even though I called her at 8 and left a message with someone at the house she was staying at.. She said she was "getting worried" because she hadn't heard from me and it was like 10:00.. I just said "fuck you" and turned the message off.. I just get really pissed off when she says anything like that.. well, I was pissed of at myself and at her, so by the time I got onto the computer, I wasn't in too good of a mood.. now I'm bored, wishing I had someone who wanted to hang out with me, and my contact is bothering me.